SELF-COMPASSION AND OCD
LIFE, the true sense of the word…
is equal to compassion
There- is- no- life … without love and compassion towards self.
This is God, this is freedom, this is peace.
OCD, anxiety, are thought patterns and behaviours based in fear and self-hate.
So… I have found freedom in QTLC- Quantum Triggering Life Choices.
Its a practice I am still learning, an important part of the Wel-Systems® body of knowledge and way of life.
QTLC is when you sit with the body and open and allow what one might call the moments of hell, i.e. the moments you are triggered into pain, anxiety, mental suffering.
Those moments are important messengers! They are saying - “Here is a truth”, that has been trying to speak to you for perhaps eons.
So rather than tense the body, bracing against these moments, I “open”, I practice opening, and its hard, but its the essence of COMPASSION!! I am not berating myself- there you go again with anxiety, you see you will never be normal… (digging myself deeper into self-hate).
Rather - I am opening to the experience, and saying to my BODY- what ever it is you lived, in my memory or not, in this life of not, you are sending me a message and I will honor and listen and allow you to express!
The underpinning of this practice is love, respect and acceptance of the true self, the essence that is me.
When I practice this (and its NOT easy), I hear the silence of the universe inside of me, leading me to the truth in me that is peace, rather than the lies that have solidified into habits that are cement, and bring no safety or peace.
So inviting and allowing, ALL that is me, the painful, the history, is the only way for me.
This after a life of trying to “FIX” myself, with routines, compulsions, that build layer after layer of a decaying shell, that is NOT life.
What underpins “fixing” , is the assumption of being defective, no good, I thought, still think, I ALWAYS need fixing!
So I put my eyes upward, I hear the peace, the silence, I know the truth is that I AM THAT.
And so, I unravel my ocd and know that I AM beyond the “matter” of the world, and that I AM this peaceful energy.
Randi! How have you been?!!
I wonder how many women would FREE themselves if only they would open to the possibility of an alternative rather than close to the familiarity of the discomfort. Thank you for this piece, Randi, it makes so much sense
“So rather than tense the body, bracing against these moments, I “open”, I practice opening, and its hard, but its the essence of COMPASSION!! I am not berating myself- there you go again with anxiety, you see you will never be normal… (digging myself deeper into self-hate).”